Passion

It's been forever since my last post! I'm sorry for that! Bcause sometimes I just wonder if someone "really" read my blog, so when my bestfriend, deveh, ask me why I don't update my blog, it's like BAM to my head, bcause someone really read this, and she says she enjoys it. Honestly, I enjoy write in my blog, bcause I love to share my current life with my friends and strangers. Haha maniacs!

So in this post I will talk about passion. At first, I don't really care about finding my real passion. I just want to have a regular job and big money in my bank accout. Tapi setelah gw baca banyak self-help book. SEGITU PENTINGNYA buat enjoy pekerjaan yang lo kerjain. And i still reject that idea. I had a long talk and argument with habibi, i call him bebe, he's a dear friend of mine, he has a big catering and wedding organizer and a cafe here, in Jogja, so I think he found out what his passion is. So we talk, believe me it's a long and "beribet" talk dan kita tetep nggak tahu kenapa penting passion itu. Kita bahkan masih bingung sama arti passion itu sendiri.

And BOOM! i have this job. My current job. Oh ya, for you that doesn't know, I have a regular job now, 9am-5pm, at CGCG, it's an organization, under P2EB, FEB UGM. Project yang gw kerjain sekarang adalah membuat sistem peratingan untuk menilai Corporate Governance perusahaan-perusahaan besar di Indonesia. And man, this is HARD. Udah ada model peratingan sebelumnya, cuma karena ada perdebatan ttg validitas dan blabla, jadi dibikin model peratingan baru yang bisa lebih reliable, dan gw-lah salah satu dari 3 asisten peneliti yang ngebuat peratingan ini. Peratingan sebelumnya makan waktu 1 tahun, dan buat peratingan baru yang sekarang lagi gw kerjain, deadline gw adalah 3 BULAN! Standing ovation is in order!!

It's HARD!I'm bored to death! 1 partner gw bahkan ngundurin diri saking nggak bisa bagi waktu buat kerja dan kuliah. Tadinya gw juga gitu, mati-matian kerja, pagi, izin buat kuliah, langsung lanjut kerja sampe 5 sore, sampe kos makan, dan langsung lanjutin kerja lagi bisa sampe past midnight. Yah walaupun sekarang udah jauh lebih santai dan lebih peduli sama social life, so yeah it doesn't feel that hard anymore. Tapi ya itu, karena gw gak kerja sama so-called 'passion' itu yang bikin gw kerja males-malesan sekarang, bangun tidur dan kebayang harus ke kantor hari ini aja udah beban.

I'm not lazy, at least that's what I always talk to myself, tapi karena project-project gw sebelumnya selalu FUN, gw biasanya kerja buat MC dan asisten yang perlu banyak korespondensi buat orang lain, and I really love that. Pas KKN (gw cabut 4hari) buat urusin ADBI, it's a big organization, se-ASEAN, dan mereka lah yang netapin peraturan perekonomian se-ASEAN, wow right? Jadi orang yang diundang jadi emang orang-orang besar se-ASEAN, mantan perdana menteri thailand, dan blabla, dan kita dinner bareng. they're so nice and down-to-earth, dan gw jg MC buat acara itu (ah gw lupa bilang, seminar itu buat nentuin peraturan perekonomian tahun 2013, krang kerjaan gak sih?) but yeah it was nice, the nicest thing is i work with my bestfriend, pitak, dan akhirnya akrab sama senior-senior yang jg kerja buat project itu. Kita tidur bareng, sarapan bareng di hotel, midnight eating di KFC, dan lainnya. and the paycheck is another I grateful about!haha. Kerjaan lainnya biasanya jadi LO, my last job jadi head LO buat ulangtahun kampus tercinta FEB UGM, believe me it was hard, gw harus bagiin kerja anak-anak buah LO, atur payment buat setiap performers, atur jadwal latihan, dan gw juga LO pribad Tohpati. A lot of crisis, misunderstanding and confusion, but yeah Alhamdulillah the dies natalies is a great success.

SO i have the comparison right? The fun job and the really-not-so-fun job, dan tenaga dan pikiran gw jauh jauh lebih kekuras di the-not-fun job, mungkin cakupan kerjanya sama-sama besar dan sama-sama bikin stress, cuma karena di job sekarang itu gw jauh ngebosenin and my boss is not as crazy and fun as my old boss, it begins to be burden for me. It's been 3 month I work for this project, dan kebayang nggak sih gimana rasanya SE-TI-AP HA-RI bangun dan langsung bad mood gara-gara tahu hari ini bakal sama bosen dan susahnya kyk hari kmrn? damn, that wasn't easy! Alhamdulillahnya, 2 partener yang kerja sama gw sekarang baik, FUN, dan cukup pengertian sama mood swing gw. I'm still blessed! :)

Sekarang gw lagi niat-niatnya intern di Jakarta,because simply it's good for my CV, I can live at HOME (SUPER YAY for that!), and stay close with my family and friends! Kemarin dapet sebenernya internship di Law Firm gede di Jakarta, dgn bayaran yang lumayan bikin gw nganga, sayang karena masih harus UAS Januari, dan kontrak kerja gw masih Februari, they can't wait for me that long :( but THE BIG CALL IS CALLING ME! lagi nonton Arisan 2 sama pitak, dan dengan konyolnya gw sebelahan sama temen kampus yang cantik nan baik hati, tari, and I got that call. For your information, I have this weird phobia to pick up a call for stranger, at least I think 1000000 times before I pick a call from unknown, luckily I got the good feeling, it was a multinational company, the biggest in Indonesia I guess and most prestigious for all I know. Mereka minta jadual yang gw buat, buat internship (June) diganti jadi January, Nanya gw mau berapa bulan buat intern disana, dan akhirnya ngirimin email, ada link di email itu buat gw tes online. I cheat, I did that online aptitude test with 3 of my bestfriends. They offer to help me (yeah I know, how I can be that lucky to have bestfriends like that, right?)) and BELIEVE ME, you can kill me if I lie, but that 3 of my bestfriends are GENIUS!smart-ass! they help A LOT, gazilion thanks, tapi tetep aja dengan soal tingkat DEWA (becandaan gw tiap ada yang nanya gimana tes gw: cuma asisten Tuhan yang ngerjain! nggak masuk akal!) i don't think the result is outstanding!haha sorry to say. but yeah, gw gabungin 4 otak aja cuma ngerjain setengah dari dari keseluruhan, I just hope that my competitors were failed to complete the test too! Now, I can just pray! Please please, whoever you are that read this post, please cross your finger for me, I'm dying to have that job! It can be my ultimate reason to leave my current job (like a bonus from heaven!)

But THANKS GOD, i think I already find my calling!hehehe I hope! My head is spinning round-round-oh-baby-round-round bcause I'm working on my thesis! I want to graduate as soon as possible and make a big check! But I have this really big project I build on my own, and only my closest friend know about it, it's still far-far away from finish, but yeah I'm happy with the progress. And i make a really-short-version of it, and send it to something, I really hope it gets publish and I can have real money from it! I'm a very material girl, but I deserve it, so what the hell! :) the thing about passion is, because you love what you're doing, you just can't get tired of it. Secapek-capeknya kerjaan gw dan tugas kuliah, if I work on that my very project I just can't stop! It become my habit and my biggest guilty pleasure! Wish me luck for it! I promise I'll update you about it when I can have "success" from it :) :)

I don't know if I can call this passion or not, but I grow my heart for travelling! It's not something big, biasanya travelling gw dari sifat impulsif (bangun-tidur-mau-liburan-cek-tiket-online-beli-dan-pergi), ajakan temen deket yang nggak pernah gw tolak. Baru liburan kali ini aja gw ribetnya setengah mati, yah awalnya impulsif juga sih, bosen kerja di kantor, cek website airline tentuin mau kemana, sampe akhirnya keinget kalau gw janji mau jengukin Mumut, my real-best friend, yang kuliah di Aussie. Gw tahu mahal, tapi TRM Mandiri gw yang bikin gw kesiksa tiap bulannya karena langsung motong x00 ribu dari tabungan perbulan selalu aja bikin gw kesel, tapi Desember ini I can have all my money back! My all-tears-and-blood money! hahaha Pertamanya sih ketakutan buat izin ke orang tua, karena buat pesawat oulang perginya aja udah lumayan, blom lagi disana apa-apa mahal, blom lagi visa yang susah dan sgala macemnya. Hal yang paling ngeganggu sebenernya cap gw yang "liburan mulu" sama temen-temen gw. Tiap ketemu yang ditanyain "kok kuliah del?tumben!liburan udah selesai?" "yaampun della coklatan deh, liburan kemana nih kmrn?" "oleh-oleh dong,pasti lo abis liburan kan?" and so on and so on, but i think about it, and hey it's my life, it's my money, hell about what others say, right? setelah perjuangan alot sama bokap akhirnya dibolehin juga buat berangkat!sempet nyoba ngurus visa, cuma karena brangkat masih maret, disaranin jan/feb ngurus visanya! so yeah, see you on March, Mumut!

And i still have a lot trips that i'm dying to go, januari sama pitak lucky ke bali, made a promise to go backpacking to thailand with binar, karimun jawa with depong, dan impulsive belanja 2hari di sing sama pitak!

Can't wait for all of it to happen! Life is not about the money, my friends, it's all about the memories! ;)